I dunno why... but i am starting to feel guilty.. it's the second time i've dream abt smth likedat.. soo real so nice soo beautiful yet soo untrue... eveytime same person.. different scene.. different story... like i'm in a movie likedat... well maybe i just need a super big knock on my head to keep those thoughts away from me ba... cause sometimes i just can't stop thinking abt it..=[... the feeling is like urgh!!! think nobody knows how i feel or think inside ba.. cause i normally dun go around telling ppl or voice out these personal stuff de.. maybe there isn't/or i haven't found this one person in this world that i can really trust ba... someone who can hear me whine or hear my thoughts and stuff.. know what to do when these things happens... oh well.. i will just have to go deep down and personal with myself... just hope that i won't burst one day.. yupps... i dun know.. i just might go crazy one day..

well... i realise smth today... i woke up thinking i have smth to do... but i forgot abt it and went to grandma's hse... after leaving then i sudden;ythought abt it.. i totally forgot abt the uniform collection can!!! argh... just hope the person reply my message..if never reply gonna call tmr... means i be gg orchard alone tmr... imagine.. go orchard just to collect one uniform then zhao.. damn stupid right?? but no choice... haiz... think i gg slp now..rest my thoughts.. =]