I dunno why... but i am starting to feel guilty.. it's the second time i've dream abt smth likedat.. soo real so nice soo beautiful yet soo untrue... eveytime same person.. different scene.. different story... like i'm in a movie likedat... well maybe i just need a super big knock on my head to keep those thoughts away from me ba... cause sometimes i just can't stop thinking abt it..=[... the feeling is like urgh!!! think nobody knows how i feel or think inside ba.. cause i normally dun go around telling ppl or voice out these personal stuff de.. maybe there isn't/or i haven't found this one person in this world that i can really trust ba... someone who can hear me whine or hear my thoughts and stuff.. know what to do when these things happens... oh well.. i will just have to go deep down and personal with myself... just hope that i won't burst one day.. yupps... i dun know.. i just might go crazy one day..

well... i realise smth today... i woke up thinking i have smth to do... but i forgot abt it and went to grandma's hse... after leaving then i sudden;ythought abt it.. i totally forgot abt the uniform collection can!!! argh... just hope the person reply my message..if never reply gonna call tmr... means i be gg orchard alone tmr... imagine.. go orchard just to collect one uniform then zhao.. damn stupid right?? but no choice... haiz... think i gg slp now..rest my thoughts.. =]

Shall Start with Wed.. SSM day.. as usual.. before 7 reach skool le... then waited at the busstop for joyce and sheryl.. then they came.. we went to change and get ready... then went to TCA... put things in lockers then went up for our spot check... mine passed =D.. and also cause check me the teacher not bad la.. then had lesson on how to take order and stuff.. then went for break?? 1 hr.. cause our grooming gt improvement..=].. went engine last canteen makan.. then went backk then was taking orders in group time.. =] then was learning how to cork and open wine.. damn nice.. i like =]... then was pouring of wine... shuo dao open wine damn angry.. teacher keep gg around stealing our wineopener... most qi is i just put down to throw thing then he took away le.. like RAH!! but lucky i gt put name... manage to beg back frm him... lucky classmates not bad.. when teacher say shld he give me back not... they say.. yesh.. lolx..=].. then was the most tiring/hand aching part... plate carrying.. then plate weigh thing 1.6 kg each.. then we must carry two.. with one hand nia.. the first plate is kiap in between.the 3 middle fingers and the first and last fingers... imagine.. hold awhile hand pain le.. then still need to put one more plate on my the last and first finger there... like damn xin ku la.. at first i can de.. then slowly bo li liao.. then cannot le.. then must hold for damn long lo.. fist was 2 min.. then 3 min then 4 min.. next was walking 3 rounds 3 times with the plates... but.. in the middle of each had few sec breaks... if not comfirm mati.. the worst is.. that night which was tuesday night.. i injured my wrist while sleeping.. lolx.. power right?? then still must use the hand carry plates... haiz... then after tat finally break off le.. then chiong with s and j to design there bath... lolx.. we everytime go there bath de la.. then will eat at there too =].. then later slack till 5.50 likedat then we go off.. imagine j still have tut after tat... 6-9.. damn poor thing lo... then i still go meet my friend awhile... lucky my friend not baD.. kind person.. help me carry things =]...
Thurs.. was a short day.. only lec.. and 1/2 hr bus calculas lec.. lolx.. soo ya...
today.. had lec... then cause bese lec cancelled ma.. so have 3 hrs break.. then went print.. then parkway... then raining// then we damn sian.. somemore damn big... lucky never wet untill very cham... went mac to dry ourselves and eat...then no rain le went pp to collect j business suit.. then chiong back to skool.. but still late.. cause traffic jam all tat... then was late for like 7 mins la.. lucky teacher not bad.. acc tut.. then went eastpoint.. message some ppl for dinner.. lucky gt gd news as usual..my fav can.. =DDD
and yah.. forget to mention i tues saw my cousin.. =DDD like so qiao. cause went tamp make card ma.. then took 23,, then he came in to... didn't saw him untill he sit beside me and smile.. lolx.. we chat all tat.. then he gt say one part... wanna teach me fishing?? lolx.. like so cooll.. but derno will ma leh.. hope so... =]..
and now me, j and s keep saying "So embrassing" heard is derno wad show de auntie lucy.. acc i never likedat dee lo.. they keep influence me.. untill i now everytime keep.. so.... so... so... then we will always end up with a huge amt of laughters..=]
till now skool's alright cause when u're with the right person.. everything seems to fall into place.. skool's dun seems to be a torture anymore... esp SSM..it can be real fun... =] though will make me every week stress..lolx.. ok.. shall stop here.. tmr not gg halloween.. cancelled.. =].. then shall go grandma's hse ba.. since gt nth..=DDD toodles=D

Last week was my first week of skool...
mostly was all lecture... only thing is wed is damn tiring and stresful because of SSM...
DAMN TIRED after SSM..bathed in skool and later was nodding all the way home..
Sat was the halloween outing.. =]
went to skool for some stuff.. then needa put makeup.. then the person go but more of my eyeshadow on my eyes... damn bu xi guan lo... lolx.. then went to meet st @ airport.. then see lmh.. then with jean and st went mac eat..then off to ps... damn alot of ppl... in the end evet cancelled... then jes came... then mrt to amk... on the way somewhere jean friend also took the same train.. then neet up with the others... then we the girls minus chui plus jean's friend went to eat... had char siew noodles...then was off to take bus to night safari...then reach le was like woah.. alot of ppl.. then went to take tic.. then slowly join the queue and go in.. finally we went through... then chuiwent with her friends while the rest of us tgt.. went to walk the trail..gt one part at the well there damn funny.. cause the ghost went back to the well... then dun wan to come out.. then jean de friend suddenly say if you come out i give u $2?? lolx.. then the ghost strtch out hand and came out.. lolx.. funny la... then watch the show...then was walk at the night safari.. saw some animals.. then went out cause safari like closing?? the outside hang out a while.. then find chui.. then hang out again.. take photo.. then took maxi cab home.. yupps.. =]..
ytd was 2nd week of skool...
meet early to change to formal wear.. then we were like freaks in skool cause who will wear formal in skool when it's the only the 2nd week of skool.. saw lots of ppl.. saw koon.. jean was like i saw her friends first then i was like where is she.. she sitting in front of me nia.. lolx.. then later my friend keep jean jean jean liao.. tsk.. then saw xh too... =]... in the middle gt 5 hrs break lo.. can die!!! wonder how i can survive next week...then hsh...
today.. was ok.. had ticketing tut.. not bad.. but alot of codes to rmb.. then was 3 hrs break.. then mice tut.. mice was more boring.. yupps.. then hsh again..i shall slp early.. cause tmr is SSM!! damn scary can!! wish me luck!!!

14/10
meet jean xy caroline then zm... went orchard walk walk..
ate at ion watami.. damn nice and filling..=]
then walk around.. then zm needa go off..
soo went toilet cam whore. then send zm to mrt.. then went fareast
then chui came... then went back ion to eat..
ate at hongkong cafe... service quite slow cause very pack..
then later gt ppl came to ask wanna buy member anot...
then ask this month gt anyone de birthday...
i dun know they gt point at me.. then the person look at me then i say dun have
then the person say they all pointing at me.. then i realise.. then damn ps...
anyway in the end boiught the member card.. cause minus all tat le become $7.30 for the member.. then gt a super big cup bowl?? lolx.. then went toilet cam whore again..
then later pei jean wait bus then hsh..
15/10
today.. went tamp poly clinic to take jab... damn nervous.. cause damn long never take jab liao..
in the end still ok =].. not pain... but after tat a few hrs later then pain.. lolx.. have aching feeling at the area..then while waiting sheryl call me say she same classas me.. damn then saw st and sh then went bugis? walk a while.. then go find friend.. chit chat and stuff... then go meet hm.. then walk bugis street a while.. then bought shoe for skool..yupps.. then went long john eat.. damn long never eat there le.. then go walk bugis junction =].. then 12-ed home... stop with hm.. then walk then ended up ait and chat.. then gt some part sms jean quite funny.. me and hm laugh damn alot..lolx.. yupps..
tmr... meeting hm afternoon... yupps..=]
toodles

Ytd went out for marina barrage trip..
meet hm.. then jean xy caroline st and jes.. t
hen off to marina bay... on the way stop at raffles place to buy food.. yupps.. =]
after tat walk to bus stop wait for bus... then off to marina barrage =D
then chui came too =]
took lots of photos and stuff.. had lots of fun =DD
abt 10 plus then mrt-ed home =D
reached home around 11 plus..
then upload photos.. then the first album keep having errors.. kns..
so morning i delete the album and reupload the first album =]
tmr gg out =DDD yupps.. =]
can't slp now... how how how??
think i gg stare still the sky turn dawn again!! =[

I REALLY DOUBT IT WILL HAPPEN.
SO PROVE ME WRONG PLEASE!

Watch chao ji xing guang earlier...
lee je yu performance was nice.. damn cute la.. yupps
anway was here just to blog
HAPPY ZHONG QIU JIE!
though i dun eat moon cake de...
only eat ice cream or durian de..
but still... i rmb how i used to play with the paper latern at home and at my hse void deck there..
really miss those days.. =]

I had a GREAT b'dae this year i must say :)
Well it started with web cams greeting frm the most fabulous ppl =]
then sms starts flooding in..
msn and calls too..=] i luv the web cams and calls the most!! =D
maybe cause i prefer seeing or hearing real ppl talking ba.. haha..
but this year is slightly different..
cause i didn't meet my girls aka sisters to celebrate my b'dae this year.
thus no picture taking..lolx...
think i'm just tired of asking ppl out ba.. lolx.. =]
nevertheless it's still one of my most like b'daes =]
well i ended up sleeping like 2 plus ytd..
then woke up at like 10 to meet my friend at 12..then we ate and then my friend went off to skool.. =DD
then later i meet another bunch of friends.. in the middle i have some time to spare.
so i went to the library.. then i saw uncle patrick..
then i almost late in meeting my friends cause was too engross in books...
then we walk talk and laugh a great lot...
then 6 likedat took mrt to boon keng to meet parents and sis to have our dinner..
after that bus-ed home to clear e-mails and thanking fb wishers..
was kinda surprise to see some whom i only knew for like a few hrs to wish me =]..
hope to see them soon.. guess will be till november le ba...but we be doing different shifts =[..
and this year i have 2 whole and one slice of cake.. lolx..
prezzies i like them alot... and i'm using one of it now... a butterfly hairclip.. =D
think i gonna go sleep soon....
and ya.. happy birthday to SHERYL CHOO =D
one day after me nia... still rmb ytd she still thick skin in msn ask am i the first??? lolx..
i MIGHT get to go malaysia again.. hope so lolx... but i think most slightly won't ba..soo JANA don;t get ur hopes up.. =]
and hope jean is having fun @ bk... i really miss the place.. i still rmb DREAM WORLD where all the things seems so big to me at that time.. and i also miss the shop where i bought my teddy purse..